dream a little dream

its strange how you reach a point where you think you are fine
then you see a name - in indication that this person is still alive and you realise that in actual fact - you are not.....

i found this in my diary a few nights ago....

i dream a little dream every day
dream that i could take you away
dream of showing you where it all began
far south - in my land
dream of kissing you under the stars
making love with only the moon as a witness
i wish i could show you a world where time is a tad slower
a world that would remind you of home,
yet challenge you with the new

when i met you, i knew you were special
that's why its so hard to get over you
i don't ever want to, because you deserve to be loved by me
ha - how self centered.
you are loved where ever you go
what makes me so special?

i turn all the bad things in your mind to good right?
for a while i did, at least
then i turned sour
became this ugly thing that not even i knew i could be
i scared you away with my apathy
made you think i was pathetic
i think that sometimes

this life brings us people to do things that help us learn
you were meant to break my heart
nobody could do it quite like you did,
which is exactly why you did.

i do love you and hate you at the same time
actually that's not true
i love you, couldn't hate you if i tried
hate myself for trying

there's no point in saying that you will be great someday,
because you already are
why do you take so much crap from some people and none from others?
you mystify me and that's what attracts me to you.

do all dreams have happy endings?
mine seldom do
hopefully this one will
i would love to show you AFRICA
but if i don't get to do it,
i sincerely hope that you will see it someday
even if its with somebody else

love forever
fireboy

how do we go from being in friends to being complete strangers?