the blur at the edge, highlights the focus in the middle

there are things in our lives that we can't change
we are either male or female or both or neither
white, black, brown or yellow with blue, grey or black eyes and straight or curly hair that reflects or absorbs light in its own fabulous or dreary way.
some people live longer than us, others die around us and the only thing that connects it all, connects these thing that seem totally random, yet are too complex to be is that we can't change them. basic facts of each of our lives that determine in a way who and what we are and become.

the most concrete of these is of course the only other constant than change on this planet - death.
some will die quickly others in slow agony. some will give up, others will fight their way into oblivion and beyond, yet each person upon this plane of existence is fated to have at least one experience that is the same as each other person here.

what's the point of the story - there is none really.... or is there?

i've realized in my wanderings that there are things about myself and my life that i cannot change. i am gay, i am a man, i love marmite and cheese sandwiches.

the flip side of the coin is that i can change the way i view my world and that in doing so, i can manifest the things i truly want and need. not through personal effort alone, but through the connectivity with the universe's energy. communicating with something that is at once everything and nothing.... amazingly easy once you open you mind to it

there is a peace in knowing that everything will be ok, even if it is not at the moment. its really strange, but the moment i started believing that my life will be fine and will work out exactly as it should, things became better. not necessarily because they changed, but because i looked at them through new eyes.